Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Where was I?

I'm having trouble remembering continuity on this blog. It's my own fault of course that I don't remember what I have and haven't written. This blog is as much a stranger to me as it is to you.

Don't ever assume that I re-read what I have written. I have a history of once it is published...oh well...

So, the divorce is final, I get my empty nest (although, to be fair, it's not as traumatic when I no longer live in the family home) in my little city row house. My kids are set into the next phase of their lives and, what do you know? I begin the next few weeks with this is the first time in my life I have ever...

*Lived alone in my own place
*Owned my own car in my own name with my own insurance
*Went to the grocery store with my Own List and my Own Recipes and bought whatever the fuck I wanted

I tried to think of more but really?? I turned 49 last month....that's enough.

Again, I can't remember what I have told you so far but my oldest daughter E joined the army after she graduated college. She is the kid who everyone says looks like me...when she was little and the kids picked their favorite people, she would have picked me...

We have had some problems, she and I , for the past year and maybe I will talk about them here someday but I would have to have her permission. Divorce for children is never an easy thing...that's all. It's sufficient to say we now are on a tangent...we get each other very well. There is no anger, no "issue".

Except...

She broke her hip in Basic Training and now she is living with me. We are down to our last week of convalescent home training and yeah.....

I admit it. I was just all ready to let my girls go and focus on me and then one of them came back. Thankfully I have an awesome counselor to help me with all of this. I won't and can't feel guilty when I say that I can't wait to finally put ME first again. As long as no one else needs me, I should be ready to get all on that pretty damn soon. I hope so 'cause it was getting pretty damn interesting.

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