...although I am getting smart enough to realize that that good mojo is not happening any time soon.
Knowing that gives me some control over the situation. I guess.
It's interesting, this world of ours. The things we notice from different perspectives are, well, different. When I was part of a couple, I never realized how couple-centric everything was. But hey, as a single woman, I notice it all...the 2-for-1 world we live in is so geared towards couples and dates and gahhhh...
I am increasingly becoming the third wheel in so many aspects of life. From the lovely family beach photos on Facebook (which I am starting to resent...I mean really. How many fucking pictures of your vacation at the beach am I supposed to look at and pretend that I am happy for you? I sense a mass un-friending about to happen) to the ever insistent bargain deal at Applebees/Olive Garden/Friday's nastiness promoting shared apps and desserts.
I'm so tired of being surprised by all of this. I shouldn't be. I've been single long enough to know all this. But lately...lately it has been harder. My single divorced girlfriend, who I had a ton-o-fun with has a new boyfriend and I never see her anymore. Even my daughter who I love to hang out with a couple times a week has a new boyfriend. At least he likes me and we get along great but I don't want to be that pity inclusion anymore.
The funny thing is...I don't want a boyfriend. I want my fun girlfriends to hang out with again.
I might change my mind about that boyfriend thing. Someday. Once I find someone who can prove not all men are assholes. I'm not that desperate to join the couples world.